- I have a very very bad habit of procrastinating things, even the most high priority ones as well. Have to do something about this.
- Planning things is way easier than actually doing it.
- I might come across as an extremely impulsive person, who says anything. But I am more than that. I actually mean them from my heart, things which I shouldn’t have said. And those are no impulsive random blabbers, LOT of thought and analysis has gone in them.
- I make conclusions way too easily, and pay for it eventually.
- I am very unsocial, I hate networking and socializing.
- Sometimes I fail to see the broader picture, so momentary happiness leads to very acute pain.
- I think I actually am pretty dumb.
- I am a bit repulsive as well,with my self derogatory practices and repetitive mundane actions and pathetic sense of humor.
- I am way too transparent about my emotions.
- I want some people to find happiness very soon.
- I want to go on a trip to Europe and visit some places which I so badly want to visit.
- I want to find satisfaction in life.
- I want to complete all of my short term, mid term, long term and very long term goals.
- I want to provide happiness to all the persons who matter to me.
- I want to keep all the promises I make.
- I want to get lost in my dreams and stay there.
- I want to have control over time. Make it flow faster or slower as per my wants.
- I want to know what I want.
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- I take a lot, yes a lot of time to break ice with somebody….. but when that does break then I give myself away too easily… both the things are bad, specially the second one, because people are not always as they seem from outside….
- Deciding what and how to do stuff is much much difficult than doing doing it.
- I have no freaking idea what will happen in the next 1-2 years.
- It is the fault of the Indian education system that I am supposedly studying Engineering today. If we weren’t led to believe that Doctor and Engineer are the only two good people, I would have been an Astronaut. 😛
- I want to see a few people become somethings they desire.
- For some days I want to live a life that doesn’t involve computers or Internet.
- I want to break free… for days from this circle of Gmail…Facebook and Orkut… deadlines….sleeping…. and being Tensed.
- I want to see a few people become somethings they desire.
- It is impossible for human being to remain human, after surviving DCE for 4 continuous years.
- I want to Sky-dive and really experience free-fall.
- I want to go on those gondola rides in Venice.
- I want to experience a back-pack trip through Europe.
- I want to visit Paris, Rome, Venice… in all, the exotic places in Europe.
- I want to get stranded on an island (A tropical paradise to be precise) for few days.
- I want to travel the world and visit each and every country.
- I want to trek through the himalayas.
- I want to buy a Harley Davidson (preferably V-Rod) and drive off all the way to Leh.(Even a Bajaj Avenger would do, infact any decent cruiser would do!)
- I want to slide on freshly fallen snow.
- I want to feel the adrenaline rush whenever I want.
- I want to travel at the speed of the light.
- I want to live in small Scottish Cottage.
- I want to do whatever I want.
- I want to stay at a beautiful hillstation and sip hot cocoa while its raining there.
- I want to travel on a bike though twisty hilly roads and when it is raining.
- I want to Base Jump off bridges into rivers or lakes.
- I want something like Jab we Met to happen to me.
- I want to be able to fly.
- I don’t want to return to reality.
- I want to continue writing this post.
Its been a “different” past 2 weeks or so. First the sheer mental torture of “final” sem exams including the “project” , not that I was burning the midnight oil but still there is some amount of burden none the less. Also the headache(s) of other stupid things which keeps me busy! Anyways, having found a bit of breathing space (read time) before the fat lady sings (read, the final viva of project) I find my self absolutely vella. And keeping in mind the various blankness’s created by MTNL and NDPL of late (still Dilli rox), I find my computer and internet connection running today.
Yeah, Just another non sense random post, and I dont know why I am posting this.
Exam times again x-(
I am somewhat of an insomniac, and for sometime now, I have been sleeping for less than 4 hours out of the 24 hours.
But yesterday, Voila! I found a magic potion for having a sound sleep. I opened the book for cramming up “I don’t know what” stuff and guess what. I fell asleep, I woke up few hours later and tried to study again as “paani siir ke uupar aa gaya tha”, but alas, I fell asleep again.
Now accepting this fact that it is all futile, I thought of calling it a day (or night for a matter of fact 😀 ). I promised my self that I will wake up early in the morning and study.
Woke up early, opened the book, was just done with 2 chapters, then again I dozed off. Then suddenly I realised that I will get screwed very badly if I don’t manage to go through the course asap. So I washed my face and slapped my face tightly and somehow managed to go through the chapters.
So, Gave the exam, and now again, the insomnia is back. So back to studying I guess 😉 .
Tangled in my own cacography,
now, I fail to recognize what I see in the mirror.
Is it for the craving of love?
It can’t be, for I always knew it to be an illusion.
There was no love, but I wish there was.
Now trapped in this labyrinth,
I wish I could fathom this enigma
else the thought will corrode my core.
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D.C.E…..wat we (coll pals) like to call as despo college of engg….jokes apart….this is the place of my being for the past 2 yrs…having a rollercoaster ride…few downs and fewer ups….however
few million mood swings, hundreds of rage outbursts, thousands 0f unplesent/unhappy/sad (dukhi) moments…few good seconds in between …..and yes zillions of crushes(all one sided ofcourse)..this all within a couple of years in D. C. E. …well when i came here ..i culdnt hav imagined that things will be what they are…
anyways…looking back ..i’d have to say that the first year of coll was undoubtly the best..infact one of the better ones in my life( hopefully there will be lot better 2 come…yeah i m becomin an optimist)…..that year i had few things happnin to me which helped me many ways…
it was the time when i worked on something with devotion and passion(atleast i feel that)…….there were moments which were unforgettable…working in the college wrkshop throughout the night….runnin here n there..then the autoexpo’06….and the final competition….there were a lot of thing which are to b cherished…and finally the sigh of relif that it was all worth the effort…..not to forget…this was the time when i had my biggest crush..(my gud frnds will testify this)…well i had just lost my self…completely….it was gud that it happnd….still it wasnt meant ….but alas….
then , the second year in coll.. well i had really big hopes …but the magic didnt happen…i expected too much i guess….this year it was a learnin curve…a steep one..i got to understand ppl somwat….there is a lot more to what meets the eye…….i thought i understood ppl, and cud judge them..but i was really wrong…ppl whom i thought, werent even close to my frequency turned out to be the persons whom i shud hav trustd…and the ppl i really belivd in ..stabbed me..(hey no offence to anyone…its just my prespective)……..nyways..moving on…..
well it was not all bad….atleast i got to know ppl…..
now ,in third year….lots of dreams…huge aspirations…..hope is there…somthing or the other will happen….so ………………………….
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